okay so i did have plans of coming in here today and talking about something different, but i will have to save that for tomorrow because i need to have another work whinge.......have i mentioned how much i dislike my boss, she makes life there unbearable.
I need to do some serious rethinking of my life, my job, my family.....well everything really.
I have never wanted to move to a long way from civilisation so we could be mortgage free and well just free in general and not such a slave to the man, I want the kids to have access to, well everything really if they want it, so hence being away but not too far away if you get what i mean. But now i am thinking at what point do i save my sanity, is it better for the kids to have access to any opportunity they want or to have a happy not so much of a bitch mother.
And then after that thought comes the second guessing myself, maybe my hippy, happy life of growing, making and doing things my own way is just a silly pipe dream and that i will hate that just as much and then what. We would have sold our house to move to the middle of nowhere to an area which is probably not a sound investment and ruin our chances of ever going back.
The obvious solution I guess would be just to look for a new job, but honestly I don't think that is the answer...I don't love my job, I'm not even sure I like it anymore but as MrD says it does pay okay.
So where does that leave me......well right now I guess I need a big dose of suck it up princess
breathe deeply and remind myself 11 weeks and 2 days until maternity leave..........
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